IM NOT SPECIAL

Diagnosis

I dont know if youve ever had one of those moments where your competely dumbstruck by just a few words,the day i got told that i wasnt like everyone else ,that i couldnt just live a normal life anymore and that in order for society to except me i had to be doped up to do it.

so in admitting i was ill i was instantly segregated.

And now i need to lie to everyone about what “this” is

SO…..  was admitting i was ill the right thing to do ??? 

YES YES YES 1000 TIMES because as much as i hate lying to everyone about all these “vitamins” i take

I DONT WANT TO DIE EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY atleast not all the time

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Help me

I suppose i should start with explaining better what depression and manic depression disorder actually is in a short and simple way that people might understand better

i used to be a normal teenager but slowly i started to realize that something was wrong.

i started to not be able to control my moods and from then on things started to change

1.U could started having major sleeping probelms or constantly tired

2.U start losing interest in everything (music ,tv,life in general)

3.U will start to get ill ALOT ie colds ,flu,sleep apnea,and just general pain 

4.Paranoia (This affects me alot)

5.Cold,shaking and lack of general control 

These are not all the symptoms but they are 5 that affect me quite badly and the most noticible ones barre the huge mood swings 

Day 1 

I decided to start this blog today as i want atleast some people to understand “this”

Im depressed

im Bipolar 

And heavily medicated

SO i thought i would start by going over the medicated part.

In order for me to be “normal” i have to take 10 tablets a day there main purpose is to chill me out so much that i dont lose my temper and try to hurt myself or burst into tears and cry hsterically

Both of these are very embarrasing when holding down a full time job and knowing if i told my boss that i was mentally ill that i would be out the door quicker than shit out of a fly.

This “strange” behaviour has caused my work to hate me because they think im just some weirdo and i dont have the confidence to tell them im actually ill and i cant control it and tbh i dont know which option is better for them to think

weirdo or mentally ill :/

please reblog , i know its a pain but i want to spread the word. 

Please reblog

Hey

Your probably wondering why i just randomly started following you.

I dont know you and your not the only one i started following

The whole reason behind all of this is that i am starting a very personal blog that will hopefully raise awareness for my conditions

 Im clinically depressed with manic depressive tendencies and every day is a struggle but i dont want your sympathy i just want you to reblog some of my articles and share my profile just until i have a steady amount of followers and hopefully might be able to help people who like me and struggling with there diagnosis

The reason i just added random people is so people i know cant judge me and so i can  cover a larger group of people

please reblog this or pass on my page please it would mean alot